Reevaluation

 Ok. I got very sick more than 3 weeks ago that led me to reevaluate certain areas of my health and life instances. 

Never thought I'd vomit 🤢 though! Wasn't just that, my bppv came back at the same time along with enhanced anxiety. Everything seems to happen in three's,  looking back to the love and heartwarming support of my dad and brother; life sure teaches much when you think you know it all. It's the appreciation of positive energies that engulfed my spirits and my disability. 

Slow down, slow slow and slower. Recognized the problem of internal conflict as a meditative tandem device. 

Rest, even if you don't sleep... rest. Rest your mind, rest your arms, rest the shoulders, rest and slow down. 

To be continued as my too much genealogy has given me an headache. Need cartoons soon as laying down helps. The rain helped me sleep too, oh so nice hearing the big drops pour, releasing tension.

Tandem energy

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8115882/

Movie theater smells

 https://www.airscent.com/ambient-scenting-theaters/

I knew it! Went to see Meg 2 on Tuesday and it was entertaining.  However, it was slow beginning and as the action progressed, so did an air freshener. Why did they do it? Gross. Have to wash my hair tomorrow to get that chemical smell out. Still reeks. 

The popcorn was freshly made, butter please.. delicious but my eyes were bigger than my stomach, should have got a medium. Lunch was my favorite,  spicy cheese sauce with those fantastic pretzel bites. Tried that starry soda.  Meh. Told the cashier to check the fountain bag as it tasted like it was at the end. Fountain soda is completely different than a can, it's more concentrated. They're also a pain to fill. That was one I didn't like when I worked as a cashier a very long time ago. 

Sigh

So I've been sighing quite a bit lately. Pretty sure most of it is from ptsd and anxiety from work related stress. 

There's always some sort of tension.. my shoulders take the most but my spine is heavier. 

Too much metaphysical energies dampen and causes pain. Am feeling it physically this morning.  Had a medium self made coffee, so that perked me up mentally. 

What's a self made coffee?  It's very cold bottled water mixed with some whole milk and a spoonful of instant coffee. I bought one of those Mason jar makers for iced coffee, so that'll be interesting. I figure after reading the Amazon reviews, purchased a flavored coffee from Eight o clock coffee, caramel macchiato. Gonna get some filters for extra incentive. Along with French vanilla powder creamer. Also telling myself to not brew it too long in the fridge, don't need something that makes me fly too high. 

Half the time don't know what to do with myself. My family tree is starting to bug me. The Lewandowski line is getting confusing because there are quite a few disconnects. What am I missing with my 2nd great grandma's brother?  Just can't concentrate on it... 

I'm going to let it stew for awhile while attempting some motivational creativity on web graphics.