11/18/2022

Holidaze

Been up all night, eyes swollen from excessive crying, 
Holidays or aka holidaze in my brain, a major blow to my creativity has been torched again by the voided neurons of a 90 year old. 
No coloring books for awhile as he settles down due to dementia. 
Is there a broken rule that I must forgive myself first then healing begins again?
Energies suck during major depressive episodes. I don't care for Thanksgiving or Christmas.
This was bad one however, my bff was around to text me straight.

Not a holiday but holidaze... 
TUNE OUT. 

10/25/2022

Campfire story

 Ok. So this was written as a Halloween challenge in a graphics forum am a member of. Really had me thinking about the holiday and relaying experiences through storytelling. I've never thought of this before!... what if... what if my poetry words stumble a little, just a little...

and a horizon forms in parallel. This has happened before!- previous spiritual blog, 13 years ago. 
Alas... halloween energies that surprise! 
Spiritual trangressions of the third kind was the title of that blog. 

How about using my trauma/past experiences to write a story??? 


I had to come back to this because my brain froze. After reading some of the posts, decided to start writing. Picture if you will, a 7 year old girl. Grows up with 4 older brothers, she's the last child and only girl. She's not a troublemaker, doesn't lash out and shows courtesy as much as possible.


She sleeps in a room, alone; and can't figure out if her dreams are real or a nightmare. An experience based on unknown trauma carries her- three times within her life. At age 30 and 44, the same dream/nightmare projects itself into her soul. 


Now some people may call what she has experienced as an OBE or out of body experience. Hypnosis doesn't help uncover why this has happened to her nor does self help youtube sleep meditations.

Until...

her beloved best friend crossed over. She searches for her friend to at least gain some mental clarity. 

However, mom, always told her that she'll be okay as you can always talk to her- out loud or even a silent prayer.  ..." You must remember that not everything is black and white nor can you keep walking down the straight and narrow. " ---- MOM quote. 


" What am I seeing? I see myself sliding across the wall then upwards towards the ceiling and stayed there. Floating above but underneath... voided." 


What happened to her???? ... to be continued... ?


10/08/2022

The Breakfast Club

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9/29/2022

If at first

 If at first you don't succeed, grab a spoon and head to the freezer. Grab any flavor of ice cream you may have and dig in.