Holidaze

Been up all night, eyes swollen from excessive crying, 

Holidays or aka holidaze in my brain, a major blow to my creativity has been torched again by the voided neurons of a 90 year old. 

No coloring books for awhile as he settles down due to dementia. 

Is there a broken rule that I must forgive myself first then healing begins again?

Energies suck during major depressive episodes. I don't care for Thanksgiving or Christmas.

This was bad one however, my bff was around to text me straight.

Not a holiday but holidaze... 

TUNE OUT.