Sick

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AI generated

 Played around with some AI this morning. 

Blogger

 Tammykat has designed my graphics blog and I love what she does.  She uses Artisteer, which sadly is no longer available. Is there a way to get a template coder that does exactly what is provided.. wysiwyg wise? Used to the old Netscape editor, I'm dating myself now. 

All I'm looking for is a way to update the graphics, colors, font, etc. Am aware blogger has its own and it's simple enough.. however, every time I have tried to make a banner in the past, it never aligns properly to the center. Css  coding is someplace too as I have tried that too. Can't peek at the html either as the graphics are in a separate spot and my tablet doesn't have a control plus u. That needs  laptop. 

In other news, tomorrow is Dr's appointment. Hopefully nothing major, routine blood work to see if my thyroid is still working. And my ears, my balance is off again with the bppv. Found a way to do it myself but it requires a recliner not a bed. All the tutorials on them show a person going from one side to another and then the crystals are supposed to go back.  Uhmm, not for me. I have an arthritic neck which makes it more painful and want to puke. The recliner helped tremendously when I was ill; couple of days and a week with tandem homeopathy of my pulsatilla ( sinuses). 

Later gator.

I dont understand

 Why he doesn't want me to cook his meals anymore and then he proceeds to berate me because I ate well and he didn't.. mean. Boy did I cry! I was doing so good too.

I told him I was tired too. Yeah I'm emotional.  

Just buy a microwave for crying out loud,  he says he can't afford it. 

91 year old still pushes my buttons. Swear word alert, asshole. 

Is it..

 Odd that random stuff pops up in my brain that are after the fact, "hey!, where did that come from".?

What's the difference between taking things personally versus reacting emotionally?

I've been working on myself, the marriage of meditation and mediation..

The wait of weight;

That type of thing...

Be Still

Be still

Posted by MoonGyrl on September 9, 2013

Be still my beating heart, 

at long last I sing to thee…

A sting that left me apart

to and fro, alas a lark…

Has entered the horizon, 

a glaze for ablaze…

The moon has no fear;

it is always near.

The sun is my son 

but the soul is sole.

Water is therapy…

heating on the skin of antiquity. 

Reevaluation

 Ok. I got very sick more than 3 weeks ago that led me to reevaluate certain areas of my health and life instances. 

Never thought I'd vomit 🤢 though! Wasn't just that, my bppv came back at the same time along with enhanced anxiety. Everything seems to happen in three's,  looking back to the love and heartwarming support of my dad and brother; life sure teaches much when you think you know it all. It's the appreciation of positive energies that engulfed my spirits and my disability. 

Slow down, slow slow and slower. Recognized the problem of internal conflict as a meditative tandem device. 

Rest, even if you don't sleep... rest. Rest your mind, rest your arms, rest the shoulders, rest and slow down. 

To be continued as my too much genealogy has given me an headache. Need cartoons soon as laying down helps. The rain helped me sleep too, oh so nice hearing the big drops pour, releasing tension.

Tandem energy

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8115882/

Movie theater smells

 https://www.airscent.com/ambient-scenting-theaters/

I knew it! Went to see Meg 2 on Tuesday and it was entertaining.  However, it was slow beginning and as the action progressed, so did an air freshener. Why did they do it? Gross. Have to wash my hair tomorrow to get that chemical smell out. Still reeks. 

The popcorn was freshly made, butter please.. delicious but my eyes were bigger than my stomach, should have got a medium. Lunch was my favorite,  spicy cheese sauce with those fantastic pretzel bites. Tried that starry soda.  Meh. Told the cashier to check the fountain bag as it tasted like it was at the end. Fountain soda is completely different than a can, it's more concentrated. They're also a pain to fill. That was one I didn't like when I worked as a cashier a very long time ago. 

Sigh

So I've been sighing quite a bit lately. Pretty sure most of it is from ptsd and anxiety from work related stress. 

There's always some sort of tension.. my shoulders take the most but my spine is heavier. 

Too much metaphysical energies dampen and causes pain. Am feeling it physically this morning.  Had a medium self made coffee, so that perked me up mentally. 

What's a self made coffee?  It's very cold bottled water mixed with some whole milk and a spoonful of instant coffee. I bought one of those Mason jar makers for iced coffee, so that'll be interesting. I figure after reading the Amazon reviews, purchased a flavored coffee from Eight o clock coffee, caramel macchiato. Gonna get some filters for extra incentive. Along with French vanilla powder creamer. Also telling myself to not brew it too long in the fridge, don't need something that makes me fly too high. 

Half the time don't know what to do with myself. My family tree is starting to bug me. The Lewandowski line is getting confusing because there are quite a few disconnects. What am I missing with my 2nd great grandma's brother?  Just can't concentrate on it... 

I'm going to let it stew for awhile while attempting some motivational creativity on web graphics. 

Last hurrah

 

Biggest ever

 This site has been around a very long time.  They used to offer checks and mailed them to winners. Every now and then, I play. This morning was the biggest reward getting 3 double golds. Should have made a screencap but didn't. 

Current plays:

longing to belong

I really don't belong to anyone as if the words convey slavery..

why fit in... to be a cliche waiting to happen.. 

Is there enough space to fit into a realm of veils? 

So.. take your seat and don't be late, did you know the whole world has gone crazy?.. let's turn back the hand of time.

Not Ourselves

Stagnant

 My energies are stagnant; must be a retrograde somewhere? I am very sorry that money was wasted on that template toaster software!, they didn't respond to facebook instant messages. Wish I could get that money back!!! ohhh what is wrong with me. sighs. That's money not coming back. I found it rather odd designing with it; lack of video tutorials for one. Documentation was okay. My ego jumped then fell like humpty dumpty. Lesson learned?... stop repeating the same mistakes. 

At least with the blogger guide am able to get something going. Really didn't want anything splashy for a creative writing blog to begin with. Its on the raw side now, like the episode of Spongebob where he became abrasive. 

My heart is still heavy with emotional trauma from the two prior days. Reality bites back? or am I living in a dream world again, where visions of dancing with actor Andy Garcia abound?  sighs

bye for now

p.s.- need to bring out that creative writing journal I bought a couple years ago from Five Below. Never used it and am thinking it may be an outlet for blogging as well. Time to put my thinking cap on. 

interesting link

Science Alert

this may explain the really bad headaches ive had in the past.

Test driving

 ohhh okay. lol. splurged on template toaster to see what can be created for a blogger template... well, I need to play more with this software!!!!  It takes the place of artisteer. Sale price was 50 bucks off, so it was 99 dollars. This just may be worth the price and really try to learn something!! 

Wind

Don't care anymore. Why am I allowed to live when everything mean in this world still exists? Depression hurts more than you fathom. It's like a fart that doesn't want to come to the surface. All that gas not exploding. You have to feel good about something or this life isn't meant for me?

Experiment in reverse psychology

 You cannot tell me that reverse psychology doesn't exist. I tried doing the same thing my 91 year old dad does, Lmao. Oh holy cow, can we say hypocrite really LOUD! 

Let me get this straight... you can close my door when you get cold and force me to turn my heat up... which is fine..

I can close my door when I am cold and turn the heat up. You open the door and tell me not to because you're cold and you need the heat... 

There's no logic in this, is there? You can’t have it both ways... 

The Red Zone

Makeover ideas..

Need ideas to redesign this blog to represent what the themes are... but I like the header, it's the layout that gets boring. 

Idk if anyone reads my blog...

Used to have one called review gurl.. self explanatory.  There's no one theme here though that's why I called it an oddball aisle of alphabet soup! 

And there's nothing wrong with that...

Something encouraging. 

Don't like the new layout /theme builder they put in. Frustrating to say the least. 

Went back to genealogy and my, oh.. my. Such revelations from myheritage. Won't go into it now... later gator.

worst popsicle ever

So did some grocery shopping today and saw Outshine fruit bars for 8 bucks. Tried a lime... threw half out. Ewwwww. Sickening sweet! Made with cane sugar plus fruit puree.. not a good combination in my opinion. Maybe the other flavors are better? 

3-19-23 update: as suspected the other flavors are exceptionally better! watermelon Ive tried... grape is so good, got the mango, pomegranate and pineapple but haven't tried them yet.