2/25/2025

So be it

 Happy  my bestie finally  found her boundaries with me. Was wondering when those binding chains would at least loosen. 

Had suspicions about some things she never told me; today just proved to me that's why learning by yourself is important. 

Ever since I was a kid,have taken things personally. Am still working on this too. Figuring out what the triggers are, my responses are emotional. For a long time I thought it was a form of selfishness and had begun to spiral again with depression and anxiety. 

We do what we can when we can. Period. Yes, it's good to challenge ourselves but don't forget who knows us best.. ourselves, if our senses are on full tilt. I think this is a trigger for me because those types of energies are very manipulative.  Case in point, my current Bible studies, which I did get a passing grade of 79%. It's the way questions are asked, the choices given and what's supposed to be correct. 

It's when our egos get inflated and once again, assumptions are our worst enemies. 

If I'm paranoid about certain things, meditation helps, especially sleep. Must have at least 6 to 8 hours. I'm a cat... meow.

Well, not literally. But am a Leo with Virgo moon. Oh vey lol

Too much stimulation then.. overwhelmingly exhausted. 

Ever see memes or remember old billboards saying "challenge yourself ".. it's not about what you cannot do but harnessing the things you can and grow from it.

Took a walk this morning. 

 Head clear.

Over and out.

2/19/2025

Miniscule

Just a small update today. Changes to the background and added my animated bands from ages ago!

Nothing fance to type; still cold. However, it did go up 2 degrees LOL

10 degrees fahrenheit 

Still racking my brain on the Domanska lineage. Where did Domicella come from that warrants that last name... thing is that the documents from her marriages all state that as a surname but where it gets tricky is the first and second husbands. Her first husband had 2 last names, Bachora and Jarosweski and are indicated. Why would Marcin Jarosweski have the name Bachora too? 
After sifting through Genetka, his dad was the culprit with those.. was he a bigamist? Hate to sound accusatory here...

All good things do come in time and when least expected. 

2/10/2025

Quote

Had this on my fb.
My favorite. This was posted as a hurt piece response. 
Its hard to make friends when half your life was dismissed as shit but keeping them is another thing. Relationships of all kinds require work and effort.
Even through all that, don't expect to be a wonder woman either. You can't be everything to everyone. So when I read quotes about being yourself, which self is it?
The 2 sides of everything,  yin and yang, off and on, white and black.. 
It hurts big time no matter what. So what is the saving grace if we allow it in our lives?
To each his own?
Some will win 
Some are born to sing the blues... ok, that was a song lyric reference.. 
Don't stop believing from Journey. 
There's more to think in this world beyond the vein and veil.