Going through mixed emotions in the next phase of my life.
Apartment was approved and we see it tomorrow.
Hard to explain all the mixtures of emotions between my actions and behavior because I've been oppressed too long due to various abuses that still scar. The invisible ones turn me inside out;reacting emotionally. I just said that didn't I? Oh dear.
Just because my 91 year old dad passed on last year, doesn't mean I cannot blog about the journey he put me through...
Just because... he dictated my life.
Just because... he was a very lonely man who alienated his family.
Just because... he was emotionally abusive.
Just because... I still cry in my pillow and hold my securities; my stuffed animals, a cow named Bessie my mom gave me and a marshmallow stingray.
Just because... to be continued.
