7/31/2023

Sigh

So I've been sighing quite a bit lately. Pretty sure most of it is from ptsd and anxiety from work related stress. 
There's always some sort of tension.. my shoulders take the most but my spine is heavier. 
Too much metaphysical energies dampen and causes pain. Am feeling it physically this morning.  Had a medium self made coffee, so that perked me up mentally. 
What's a self made coffee?  It's very cold bottled water mixed with some whole milk and a spoonful of instant coffee. I bought one of those Mason jar makers for iced coffee, so that'll be interesting. I figure after reading the Amazon reviews, purchased a flavored coffee from Eight o clock coffee, caramel macchiato. Gonna get some filters for extra incentive. Along with French vanilla powder creamer. Also telling myself to not brew it too long in the fridge, don't need something that makes me fly too high. 
Half the time don't know what to do with myself. My family tree is starting to bug me. The Lewandowski line is getting confusing because there are quite a few disconnects. What am I missing with my 2nd great grandma's brother?  Just can't concentrate on it... 
I'm going to let it stew for awhile while attempting some motivational creativity on web graphics. 

7/20/2023

Biggest ever

 This site has been around a very long time.  They used to offer checks and mailed them to winners. Every now and then, I play. This morning was the biggest reward getting 3 double golds. Should have made a screencap but didn't. 

Current plays:



7/16/2023

longing to belong

I really don't belong to anyone as if the words convey slavery..
why fit in... to be a cliche waiting to happen.. 
Is there enough space to fit into a realm of veils? 
So.. take your seat and don't be late, did you know the whole world has gone crazy?.. let's turn back the hand of time.