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Looney tunes

 Well..this is heartbreaking 💔 

Max and it's greed for money completely destroyed my child within by scrubbing its entire looney tunes library. 

I really depended on it when I relapse. Its been my saving grace. Not much I can do about it either. 

Wallowing wonders in my memories now as Daffy Duck says, don't go away Daniel boob. 

And Sylvester as he sings on the fence annoying porky pig because he's trying to sleep. 

She's too much

Thank you Duran Duran for making me cry..

She's too much song

She's gentle to the touch

She's everything head first

So happy to be causing trouble

Sometimes, the pressure gets too much

And you think she's going to burst

And then shatter like a Christmas bauble

[Chorus]

I'll be there when the world is

Coming down upon her

When she's scared, I'll be there

Fighting in her corner

[Verse 2]

She cries when she's alone

For all life's little knocks

Everything that's supposed to make us tougher

Thinking, it doesn't really show

But I know how she hurts

And I can't bare to see her suffer

[Chorus]

I'll be there when the world is

Coming down upon her

When she's scared, I'll be there

Fighting in her corner

I'll be there when the walls are closing to surround her

In the air as she falls with my arms around her

[Post-Chorus]

Holding on, I'm looking out for

Her thin skin

Because she's everything

And I don't think she knows

She is such a gentle touch

She's too much, the gentle touch

[Verse 4]

She likes to catch the sun

Plays with it like a ball

And never mind whatever keeps it burning

Someday she might just be the one

Who's going to save us all

If this Apocalypse is coming

[Chorus]

I'll be there when the world is

Coming down upon her

When she's scared, I'll be there

Fighting in her corner

I'll be there when the walls are closing to surround her

In the air as she falls with my arms around her

[Post-Chorus]

Holding on, I'm looking out for

Her thin skin

Because she's everything

But I don't think she knows

[Outro]

She is such a gentle touch (I don't think she knows)

She's too much, the gentle touch (I don't think she knows)

She is such a gentle touch (I don't think she knows)

She's too much, the gentle touch (I don't think she knows)

So be it

 Happy  my bestie finally  found her boundaries with me. Was wondering when those binding chains would at least loosen. 

Had suspicions about some things she never told me; today just proved to me that's why learning by yourself is important. 

Ever since I was a kid,have taken things personally. Am still working on this too. Figuring out what the triggers are, my responses are emotional. For a long time I thought it was a form of selfishness and had begun to spiral again with depression and anxiety. 

We do what we can when we can. Period. Yes, it's good to challenge ourselves but don't forget who knows us best.. ourselves, if our senses are on full tilt. I think this is a trigger for me because those types of energies are very manipulative.  Case in point, my current Bible studies, which I did get a passing grade of 79%. It's the way questions are asked, the choices given and what's supposed to be correct. 

It's when our egos get inflated and once again, assumptions are our worst enemies. 

If I'm paranoid about certain things, meditation helps, especially sleep. Must have at least 6 to 8 hours. I'm a cat... meow.

Well, not literally. But am a Leo with Virgo moon. Oh vey lol

Too much stimulation then.. overwhelmingly exhausted. 

Ever see memes or remember old billboards saying "challenge yourself ".. it's not about what you cannot do but harnessing the things you can and grow from it.

Took a walk this morning. 

 Head clear.

Over and out.

Miniscule

Just a small update today. Changes to the background and added my animated bands from ages ago!

Nothing fance to type; still cold. However, it did go up 2 degrees LOL

10 degrees fahrenheit 

Still racking my brain on the Domanska lineage. Where did Domicella come from that warrants that last name... thing is that the documents from her marriages all state that as a surname but where it gets tricky is the first and second husbands. Her first husband had 2 last names, Bachora and Jarosweski and are indicated. Why would Marcin Jarosweski have the name Bachora too? 
After sifting through Genetka, his dad was the culprit with those.. was he a bigamist? Hate to sound accusatory here...

All good things do come in time and when least expected. 

more quotes

What can I say.. love quotes.

Quote

Had this on my fb.

My favorite. This was posted as a hurt piece response. 

Its hard to make friends when half your life was dismissed as shit but keeping them is another thing. Relationships of all kinds require work and effort.

Even through all that, don't expect to be a wonder woman either. You can't be everything to everyone. So when I read quotes about being yourself, which self is it?

The 2 sides of everything,  yin and yang, off and on, white and black.. 

It hurts big time no matter what. So what is the saving grace if we allow it in our lives?

To each his own?

Some will win 

Some are born to sing the blues... ok, that was a song lyric reference.. 

Don't stop believing from Journey. 

There's more to think in this world beyond the vein and veil. 

Boundaries

Am going through this now. Even though I love my bestie, she made me feel guilty for calling her out on not respecting my boundaries. Made me feel like dirt.

I lived half of my life with a narcissistic dad and I'll be damned if someone else breaks my heart and spirit again. 

RE: 

https://www.facebook.com/share/p/15s5mbEEqg/

"Can I let you in on a secret about friendships in adulthood

Sometimes they are really freaking hard.

Like, really freaking hard.

But so often the friends we have in our adult years are the only thing saving us from hitting rock bottom.

The truth is that even the strongest friendship bonds are not forged in stone. No, just as life is ever changing, friendships will always ebb and flow.

Sometimes your closest friends fade away into the background of your life.

Sometimes background friends somehow become part of your inner circle.

Sometimes brand new people enter your life and become the friends you never knew you needed.

Sometimes your heart aches because it misses the friendships that used to be but are no more.

No matter where you are in your adult friendship journey, don't overthink it and don't dwell in the past.

Instead, hold on tight and ride the friendship wave.

Welcome the ones that find their way to you.

Send peace to the ones who fade away.

Love the friends that are there right now."

Changing Perspectives with Jenny Brennan

Art: Art to remember

miscellaneous

Human beings are naturally social creatures, wired to seek connection and approval. But that doesn’t mean we owe the world an explanation for every choice we make. 

The right people will accept you for who you are. And for everyone else? You don’t owe them an explanation.

How you choose to spend, save, or invest your money is entirely up to you. Whether you’re splurging on something that makes you happy or being extra cautious with your budget, you don’t owe anyone an explanation.

People love to give unsolicited opinions about money—questioning why you bought something expensive or why you’re not spending more. But they’re not the ones living your life or handling your responsibilities.

the clock

All I see is hate, a very strong hate. Hate is a strong word to begin with so why does it feel like we're still going backwards as a country. 

The clock is not ticking, its been sped up again. 

The magnetic shift goes on as regular. Earth does that. 

On a roll

 Spent most of the day working on genealogy. 

Very proud of myself as I've located tons of polish documents on my 3rd to 4th great grandparents .

When you start seeing the same name twice with the same husband and its kids, time to stop. Surprised at the energy I had to accomplish this. 

Coming from someone with past issues of lack of confidence and self esteem this means the world to me. I tapped into my positive energies with things am good at.. one of those is finding things. Am grasping the terminology a bit better through the language differences. The Latin is the toughest at the moment. 

Good night blogger.

The anchor meaning...

 When wikipedia gets things wrong...

Politically correct

Cannot help but wonder what the age bracket is on the authors over at Wikipedia. 

First of all, this term has been coined since 1968, when a major paradigm shift occurred. It ventured our country into unnecessary wars that killed thousands. I can understand why by today's supposed standards it could be considered obsolete.  However it shouldn't be used as an excuse for its authors to 'wake' people up , that's just wrong because it's a form of dictation. Guess whose masters those are... 

It's grab a dictionary time. And not AI. 

Good quotes

history lesson 101

Uhm no. Anyone actually know European history will see that Elon Musk did not do a nazi salute. If he did, he did it wrong.

There are 4 kinds of salutes that the mainstream media will not identify, clarify and correct. 

His salute was wrong if there was ill intention.

Am not a fan of his.

The salute in question is actually specific but no one will care because their self judgemental ego reacts first.

His arm is not straight like a traditional salute with the fingers pointing.  They don't point they curve.

I am not a nazi sympathizer, let's make that clear. 

All that is being said and done now are the ones with hate in their heart. It's sad we live in a society where we 'jump the gun' on someone. 

If it is not indicative of the crucified Christ on the cross.. then we on earth will remain a young country without compassion, tolerance and respect.

'Everyone for themselves'..

We're listening now...

With our ears, heart and wallets.

A big bold question mark

 Well, good morning. 

It's sunny bright and unrealistically charming... 

That was a big fat lie. 

It's still frigid, cloudy and depressing. That being said, I feel sunny on the inside. 

Still can't believe I'm living in an apartment. My suppressed tears start to flow as a symbolism of letting go of those things that cannot be controlled and acceptance is on hold, even after a year. Does this prove that time doesn't exist or my brain is overthinking once  again.

Well.. 

There's a new paradigm shift. Let's hope the " as above so below " circle gets a stab. The  circle no longer has an empty sound; the new wave explosion has just begun.

Priorities

 To quote the character Monica from the TV show Friends as she watches Rachel cut her credit cards in half; " welcome to the real world, it sucks. "

Compromise and priorities are hard when you still need to eat. That being said, bought my soda from Walmart because they carry it the cheapest. Not compromising my coke zero, nuh uh. 

On to Aldi, only thing I need is coffee creamer. So why didn't I get it from walmart.. too expensive. Need to wait on it. They do have other stuff that sounds so good. The spinach dip is back in stock and they have the crab Rangoon dip... my weakness in Chinese food.

Bbl

Morning

 So yesterday was pretty decent until fibro kicked my butt. Then waking up to a dull headache that doesn't get better until I eat..then caffeine. 

That being said, found a docuseries on Jesus called finding Jesus on max. Very well done. I did fall asleep though through season 2 so I'll need to go back. It was discussing the place of Jerusalem as when he was a child but I'm confused about something... was he born there or grew up there. Another Bible mystery?  I always thought,  based on past teachings, it was Bethlehem. 

Because I do genealogy it makes me wonder. 

I'm waiting for my Bible correspondence course I signed up for. It's free too. 

Maybe some things are not yet ready to be known and if so, are certain folks privy to the information...

Watched conclave on Netflix. That was very good too. Hard to see Ray Fiennes not being a part of Harry Potter. It shows how versatile an actor he is. 

Still looking for connections for my 4th great grandma Domicella. 

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