New me new year

 There is no new me;just an improved behavior modification with years of trauma behind me?

Love to say that trauma doesn't exist but sadly it does as its permeating scars. The veil is still there though, disguising the inner sadness as something a little less wicked.

I hate still being tired from fibro. Sucks. However the 8 hour meditation sleep hypnosis always helps. Glad for youtube  content creators .

Been a couch potato with classic game shows. I hear max has a new show with skating.. should look into it.

The friends game show isn't too bad but a bit long for my taste.

Idk what else to say, it's Friday and tge snowflakes are light outside my apartment window. 

Very cold. Not gonna make it past 35. Yuck,, there's how many days until summer?

Modern chain letters

I certainly know who my only best friend will be but here goes nothing. Because this means a lot to me personally. I'm going to make a bet, that out of my friends less than 4 will take the time to put this on their wall to help raise awareness of Mental Health (PTSD, depression, anxiety, and other mental health diagnoses) difficulties.

Mark Done. 🖤💚

These Facebook posts get overlooked as one of 2 things or both: 

Speed reader and complacency 

I'm guilty of both. 

If someone cares about you, say a prayer for yourself as a blessing. 

Smiles approved and tears are allowed. 

Time to break the chains of emotional trauma?

2024

 Greetings to my garden variety blog...

it's been awhile since written and so far, flowing with the tides has me gasping for some form of normalcy in a crazy world. 

Miss the back yard and feeding the birds, it made me happy. 
Some or should I say, almost all, articles now will focus on the good or bad of the year; the in memory,etc.
Is there some disconnect or is it just me that because of a holiday, I'm suppose to grasp what and why the world changes as often as I change my underpants?

Well..
Trying to focus on types of energies has zapped me so I sleep...a lot. That's to be expected; but do NOT expect to keep explaining. Is there a need? Does anyone really care anymore?
Have we gone completely plum loco?
Am reacting to horrific news from France. What that man did to his wife is inexcusable. 
The mental health debate should not be a stigma anymore; it should be addressed but unfortunately we are in a false "woke" space. 

There are things that don't phase me as much; importance is placed where it is supposed to be needed not wanted? Just because you desire should not excuse poor behavior, or in my case, anti-social naivety due to years and years of coddling. 

Don't know what to do? Find a hobby that interests you, try getting back into a hobby you once enjoyed but pace yourself. High hopes vs low expectations is allowed because it is a way of healing. It is a part of that "essence" of things you have no or alot of control over. And by this I mean, anxiety, panic attacks, low self esteem, emotional abuse, the whole ball of wax that binds and you try desperately to unwind. It's too tight... 

Loosen the grip... on yourself. 

The Entertainer

Who knew the Entertainer had lyrics by Milton Berle...

Now the curtain is going up

The entertainer is taking a bow

Does his dance step and sings his song

Even get all the audience to sing along

Yes he knows just what he must do

Knows how to bring down the house when he's through

Snappy patter and jokes

He knows what pleases the folks

The entertainer the star of the show

It was in Vaudeville

And he was on the bill

With all the singers, dancers, acrobats and clowns

There was a dog act there

Even a dancing bear

And a comedian who never lets you down

But when he came on

To sing his favourite song

He really wowed them in the cities and the towns

They came from near and far

To see the Vaudeville star

The entertainer

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